Disclaimer: From this post henceforth, Miss Stardust shall write in a fashion that will be totally random to reflect the thoughts and little voices in her mind. The prose may not be clear nor flow naturally anymore. But this is MY blog and I write it MY way. Peace.
2010 turned out to be one of the most tumultuous year of my life with upheavals galore! Break-up, career changes, a totally new environment, new bosses, new enemies and even more new friends, new exes, massive wardrobe revamp.... some might view these as more positive than negative, but in truth, my over-exposure to the clubbing set has caused some backlash and some degree of emotional trauma. There were harsh judgements and rumours which caused tensions in my personal life and my friendships. The damage, once wrought, is hard to undo.
A kind soul suggested I head to do volunteer work end of the year.... build a school , home somewhat. People I meet would be nurturing souls who'd see purpose in changing the world rather than satisfy their hedonistic self with endless partying.... and I see what he meant. Why do people do that? For fun, to destress.... that's fine. But the lifestyle is starting to take on the meaningless. Aside from the friends I'm out for, there really isn't too much of a point. It's not like I'd want to meet dudes in the clubs or hang out with them.
Moreover, more than a couple of unsavoury characters have been spotted haunting my playgrounds. Which is TOTALLY NOT COOL. Need. To. Avoid. And then I'll need to appear popular, beautiful, successful, happy, radiant and having fun with friends, Why would I subject myself to that kind of stress? For wot? To please these unimportant people who mean jacksh*t in my life? they can F-off.
That aside, work is pretty pleasant. Intensive, yes, and I'm somewhat uncertain about the career potential, future of my team and relationship with colleagues. But I have a nagging gut feel that this is where I need to be. My bankers are amazing, lovely, warm ladies with big hearts and i've felt nothing but welcome from them. It's a constant learning experience everyday. Some days are good, some are bad, but generally, I've been kept happy by a certain Miss M, who's my new bestie within ML. (Miss C was my bestie in JPM but she's based in HK now). Miss M, though, is leaving for SCB and I'm tempted to go with her.... though I'm not exactly sure they'll take me based on my work experience. Burning bridges is the name of the game but not my game.
Will continue the rants later.
For now, it's Lantern with Miss C and then Butterfac. Woohoo!
La Turbulent (late) Twenties here I come!!
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