Survivor 20 something- One Week!!!

I am SO proud of meself! I've officially survived a week without a certain bastard! Calls for a celebration! Woohoo!!!

Woke up today to the cartoon sounds of a X'mas carol on Ju's computer. T'was quite calming actually to wake up in a room with 3 other girls. Not that I haven't had it before but this wasn't quite the same.... simply cos we're all girls going through a rough patch. (I refuse to consider this episode as anything more than a 'rough patch'.... like rough patches on your foot you know? Use a scrub long enough and it'll go away :)

So today is X'mas eve day. This day is as huge as X'mas day itself, if not more.... Because it's a day when people celebrate doing last minute shopping and spend the evening having a ROMANTIC dinner with their other half or their family then partying till the wee hours of the morn.

And I can't do any of these. How pathetic!

Talked to Ju for a while in the morn because I wasn't exactly beaming happily.

Me: MAJOR SIGH!!!
Ju: Happiness is a choice.
Me: It's a choice of the mind, not the heart.
Ju: True
Me: But it's the heart which feels the joy. So there IS NO choice at all.

then we both zonked out again until Michelle came back from her swim. How piggish!

We all had lunch at Mos burger @ Parkway which I haven't gone since Secondary school days! Imagine that! It's like 5 FREAKING YEARS!!!

But being in the East has a strangely comforting effect on me. Maybe it's because all my schooling years were spent in the East. Dunman High.... VJC.... East Coast... Siglap.. Bedok... Parkway.... places so familiar and comforting like my own room.

They bring back memories of when I was carefree and happy with heart still intact. Wish I could go back to when I was 19 years old and start with a clean slate... never been hurt, yet armed with my current knowledge and wisdom!

West is a bad place for me now cos I got hurt there. NTU's there and Daryl's there. It's a painful place to go to now and I'm glad I don't have to be there for half a year. Me thinks I wanna marry someone who lives in the East and I AM going to get a house in the East too! After all, you can't go wrong staying in SM Goh's constituency... hehe

Spent X'mas eve at home reading CLEO and 17. It wasn't so bad.

Savage Garden has this song "Crash and Burn" which goes like this...

"I believe that reading beauty magazines promote those self-esteem...."

How true!

When I look at those spectacular fashion spreads and makeup I feel SO HAPPY! Because there's so much beauty around! And people keep creating beautiful things! YIPPEE!!!

And when I look at those models, I'll think: I CAN BE ONE TOO! Then I'll feel such a HUGE ego boost and that has GOT to be healthy in times like this now right?

Christmas eve has GOT to be the worst time for newly-singles. Everyone is in freaking PAIRS and I'm home alone. Sooo... being the smart leetle girl that I am, I succesfully survived not wallowing in self-pity through the night by falling asleep by 9pm. Real early by my standards.

And so X'mas eve came and went peacefully.

"Love each other, or die."