Much Ado about nothing...

It's silly how much i've evolved over this past year of singlehood. Yesh! I've been single for a Year, CARPEESH!!

That's a pretty cool achievement if ya ask me. Then again, being single is the status quo for me. I'm happier, healthier, more wholesome and a whole lot more confident this way.

Blogging has evolved too. This started out as a kinda shrine to my trampled ego and a propaganda tool against so and so. No longer. It's still kinda narcissistic but I want to keep it happy. No grudges here. By right this blog is way past its expiry date, but I can't bear to kill it. It chronicles my life of the past year. A darn significant year of massive upheavals and changes, which aren't too bad after all.

So hell yea! I'll keep this going.

Finished The Alchemist... it's beautiful, but nothing like The Little Prince. Wonder why people draw the parallels bet them..... Dunno if I mentioned this but I particularly love the phrase: If you truely want something, all in the world conspires to help you achieve it.

So and so's been really nice to me these days and I always enjoy nights out with him. Why is that so? I totally have no idea. I amaze myself with my own generosity in looking past all the crap he gave me. But ultimately I know a leopard seldom changes its spots, so I'm not ready to commit at all.... Then again, we can't stay in this limbo forever.

On the other hand, salsa bee who was from the same batch TCH and HC as so and so has been really really nice too. But i'm not attracted remotely. Why? I can't tell too. He passes the looks department, speaks really well and is totally gentlemanly and witty at times. And he's amazingly helpful with my schoolwork and takes an immense interest in my life and what I do. And he's got an elephant's memory for things I've said. And I know he'll potentially be great for me but somehow I cannot imagine myself with him. It's too weird. Maybe it'll evolved into a healthy platonic friendship eventually...

Then again, F's contribution on the MASTER LADDER THEORY (http://www.intellectualwhores.com/masterladder.html) means we can never be just merely good friends.

Mini Bee got an overseas posting so I haven't seen much of him. Neither have I seen Korean bee... I just learnt he got attached. Just as well... I've a better impression of him this way and we can finally talk properly without him flirting blatantly at me. I've always thought he was a player, but his attachment seemed to prove otherwise. That and a new cool friend earned. Plus 100 points. haha....

Week's been pretty awesome.. if you consider staying in editing suite for 36 hours straight awesome, that is. And that wasn't it. We had more editing thru the week and classes to attend. But the immense satisfaction derived from the end product is worth everything and possibly more. I LOVE what I do and that's probably what makes me happiest--- the realization that I'm happy with what I do and my life in general. Sure there're shites here and there, but nothing too humongous to handle. And I'm thankful for the brilliant bunch of friends I have and a great supportive family who can handle neurotic lil me.

Attended a seminar on Film Financing yesterday. Speaker TP looked TOTALLY GORGEOUS! Like GOSH! He's hotter than Pierce Brosnan and Harrison Ford added together! He didn't look that old on stage... looked early 30s. But face to face his white hair was apparent. Then again, he's obviously VERY well-built. Tall, tanned, chiselled face, wash board abs and totally flat tummy. Gosh!

Still, he's AMAZINGLY charming and a totally mind-blowing speaker with lotsa creative ideas. Was kinda blown away that somebody so smart could look this good. DANG! it's not a fair world.

Didn't learn much about film financing though. Lecture was geared on scriptwriting, of which the basic principles I've understood a long time ago. So i dozed off.. much to my embarassment. Break time came and D and I were chatting about our own script when he came along to speak to us much to my chagrin. Said he didn't see us yesterday and if we were new. So yea, we're new. And he said welcome. And that he liked us cos we're always smiling and he likes it when his audience is having a good time.

Hell I was having a good time! Having a good time dozing off in the plush seat of auditorium!
So I smiled sheepishly..... Maybe he thinks i'm having more good time...

D went off after lunch and I would have died in my seat if not for a cuppa nasty coffee they provided. Yucks.

Towards the end of the seminar, all the participants were supposed to pitch a story to TP as if he were the CEO of Warner Bros and he'll issue us cheques on the amount of $ he'll finance for the movie.

So we all went... and it's really cool to hear industry players. And mind you this is quite an exclusive seminar. People pay 180 for it... So i guess only the really interested party attend. There were Medi*c*rp scriptwriters, the writer/producer of recent movie, The Ma*d and some other people like songwriters and an investment banker.

And at the end he had a show of hands on the amt of $ we received to 'fund' out movies and turns out I got 2nd highest!!! USD800,000!! haha.... He loved my idea! And my ego was boosted more than a lil healthily.

Winning idea was gangster rapper travels back in time to 120os England, meets this loser called Will, surnamed Shakespeare, write plays and music together and revolutionise the culture of England forever. They battle a tyrannical Pope for freedom of expression and give a new lease of life to the repressed peasants.

Like HOW WACKY IS THAT?? Gosh I loved that idea! I could never match that up... so yea.. 2nd 's cool. 2nd among industry players.

And that's not all.... This lady came up to me after the thing ended to get my contact, saying someone might be interested in my story idea. haha! and that someone was the co-producer of O*sam*a. Brilliant! I couldn't believe my stroke of luck! Being at the right place at the right time really matters!

Now i gotta worry about getting the script out..... but with dance out of the way things should be easy??

It was dance dance dance ltr in the evening with Salsa with F at Union first. Man! I CAN'T SALSA IN HEELS! Just can't! C'est impossible! Half the time i'm losing my balance or sliding off somewhere. It's got no friction and it's scary being so high up!

But dancing gets me really high.... and the highness continued at Cocco later with Ju, S, J and PS, who's such a darling! Cute lil boy he is! And so sporting to come with all of us! It's really wacky cos JU used to teach PS 3 yrs back. Like WHO THE HELL CLUBS WITH YER TEACHER?

It's freaky man!

Then again, nobody can beat clubbing with yer aunt! haha.... And worse..... Mommy dearest???!!!

Cocco music was a tad bit lousier than it's usual fare. Where's DJ M*ylk when you need him? Sigh....

But a very sporting PS and the ever exuberant Sha totally rescued the outing...

A bunch of Prince*ton dudes tried to hook up with Ju and who should be there but MZ! haha.... and I so know that he tried to make a good impression on Korean bee, for reasons unfathomable to me.... So I told him I knew Korean bee and he said yea... we used to play basketball toegther.

Oh well, I still hold on to my belief that he's an arrogant ass. Mabbe the party ltr wil prove me otherwise??

Supper at Spize with Sha and co was good as always. Great company, great conversation, great food. My heart sighs with contentment....

Prince*ton dudes were there, invited all of us to their housewarming ... then they left. In the light they looked really plain save for MZ. People I won't even turn to look at on the streets. But it's the Prince*ton factor I guess....

Salsa bee came along with his buncha pals and I immediately developed an inexplicably revulsion towards him. Why is he always carrying that silly N*ke bag? Why is he always in red Ad*das shirt? Why does he always look so lecherous?
And he's with this buncha guys and girls who just totaly don't look my type. How is he to fit into my world? and mine into his? And he's a darn scrub.... sitting by the passenger side of his best friend's car.... going out with him and chilling...Geez!
The more I think of him, the more repulsed I get.

Time for Operation Squish Salsa Bee to be in place...

I'm not mean.. just being practical. Cos I think there's at least a 50% chance I'll be back with so and so and I can't lead salsa bee on..... Even if I didn't wanna be back with so and so, I'll still want my freedom. So it's gotta be all or nothing..... but never salsa bee. SO better to tell him early than break his heart ltr.

And Karma does come back....

This Psychotic bee (he's a psychologist who'e always slamming my actions cos i wouldn't go out with him) has been saying some pretty condescending stuff... I hate him. Surprised I didn't block him the previous time. He's totally emo-depressive. The type I wouldn't even want as friends, let alone date...

That said... I need to burn off adipose tissues man.... before my next show on Oct 10th. Cos i'll be wearing cheongsam and those extra pounds gotta burn off asap!!!

Burn Burn Burn!!

PS- R, my TODAY editor friend, won a car in a golf lucky draw of sorts... like FWAH!!! Geez why can't I win one too? huh? huh? huh?