I know I shouldn't but I have....
I found out stuff I shouldn't know about mr D today. Turns out there are skeletons in his closet which I've never even knew existed.
I thought he and I are kinda settled (ie. open dating for a year), but what I found out today sent stabs of fear running through my being. I've been living in a rosy bubble and now the bubble floats precariously. Anytime now, some thorn will burst it and I'll fall all the way down to perdition.
The knowledge that he can blatantly lie, meet someone awful, then MIA the whole evening and later get angry with me for calling just shakes me up. It's so DEJA VU!!!
And this happened RECENTLY.
I'm not comfortable with this at all despite all his honeyed words, which he never means by the way.
I need a new bee... to get myself outta this rut. And I SO promise myself I'll get attached by the end of the one-year stipulation. Not a single shadow in the horizon yet though.
Thank goodness FYP is fast turning into a nightmare... and this nightmare will occupy my mind for some time, providing welcome distraction from affairs of the heart.
Come, deadlines! Come, Murphy! Come, supervisor! And remember to breathe down my neck! I'll embrace all of you!!
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Hate to say this.. But I told ya he's just one of those kind..
Time to move on gal. As in reeeally move on. I know more than most ex-rships cannot flourish as friendship without a total break for ahwile at least.
And experience tells me u cant put a deadline on getting attached... Unless u wanna hook another dud/loser/possessive-being/stalker/player (delete accordingly)
Besides u've got me ;)
All the best with ya project!
*sighz*
i think i should give u ur birthday prezzie to u early! It might help u with your problems. heh...
Take care ger!
What's the prezzie, ostrich? A tall, dashing, witty dancer that's considerate, loves watching cartoon channel and digs classical music?....
*lol*
But seriously ostrich, what's this problem-solving prezzie? I'm piqued.
HEY!!! mrtan, I'm not THAT hard to please la.... :P
And how come you know all those? I didn't tell you I required those in a guy did I? BTW, you forgot to factor in the "must love MOOVIES and PARTYING" bit.
Oh ya, and he cannot be a neatfreak... cos I'm not. :)
Dang, maybe i AM hard to please...
oh pls......claire....u ain't that hard to please.....
it's just that there are so few guys who can make it nowadays....
matter of perception my dearie!
and sorrie to disappoint u......but those guys that meet your expectations seem to be gay.....so can't give u that for your birthday!
i can only give u the next best thing! *winkz*
But come to think of it, it might even be better than a tall dashing guy..... ;) it's just a matter of perception...
YA!!! I SO agree with you, ostrich! State of SG men depressing right now.
Apparently, Joanne told me her brother's batch, the up and coming young punks in their late teens going into twenties are all quite tall and hunky and I look at those kids on buses and in clubs and tend to agree. SO many pretty boys around!! Too bad I'm too old for them! How come our batch of guys seem to be shorter? Matter of nutrition? Or do males our batch just don't work out enough?
And what's with the 'matter of perception'thing? Too much Advanced MCA... LOL
BTW, I still have to set you up with this Jay Chou dead-ringer I know. SO Exciting!
And you're not gonna give me a Rabbit are you?? *gasp*
lol.... How you girl? And what's your bloggy? Can't find it.
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